Sushi Sadness

t has been exactly one week since that + sign showed up and luckily I still feel exactly the same.  The only differences in life are that I am hiding a huge, amazing secret and I've had to give up some of my favorite things.  I have had to give up the following:

• wine
• sushi
• cold lunch meat!?  I haven't had my first doctor's appointment yet but I read online that you're not supposed to eat lunch meat unless you have heated it to steaming.
• coffee/caffeine - my life source - I actually haven't given this up completely.  The nurse said that I could have a cup of coffee a day (a real cup).  I've only been drinking about 4 oz.
• training for my 4th marathon - I hadn't actually started this yet but on March 30th I'm going to have to apply for a deferment since on October 30th I should be 37 weeks pregnant and while I am amazing, I will not be allowed to do that.
• Busch Gardens - sorry again, NP.  I know that we planned on getting season passed, but it's going to have to wait.

Tonight I was talking with one of my friends, NP.  We were catching up with some ridiculous stories and whatnot when we decided it was time for a get-together.  I suggested dinner.  Now, I was thinking we could cook a dinner and throw ourselves a little two-person dinner party.  She, on the other hand, went straight for my heart and said, "Oh my gosh I know this really great sushi place that you have to try!"  My heart sank.  Hubs and I aren't sharing the pregnancy news for another 6 weeks!!  How am I going to go to a sushi place, something that NP knows is my FAVORITE, and not eat the freakin' sushi?!  Dilemma.  Sorry NP.  I know that you're reading this now, almost two months after I've written it, but this was my thought process.  I already tried the, "I don't have the money" which was actually true but she offered to pay.  My next thought was to avoid setting a date for dinner, but I want to hang out so that's out of the question.  Truly I'm afraid that I'm not going to be able to keep the secret in.  I love to gab and I can't wait to talk to people about all of this but not until we're in the second trimester.  

So, NP, you're my inspiration for this post.  I'm pregnant!  I just can't tell you yet... sorry!!